well its been a while....ill say that much
I dont even know where to start with how anything has gone down lately..... it all seems kind of funny but then in other regards things seem to be on a much more seirous note.
Ive secure my job for the summer, thats great, im going to be working with the animals in bartlett like 24 7 all summer and i absolutely love it there so thats a great things, the pay is worse then last year, but hey itll help me more inthe real world then other things.
From what I hear life on the farm will be dull so im glad im not doing it at all. Sarah isnt even doing it this year, she got lucky and is workin down on the beach all summer and besides that if i worked on the farm i would have been on joes team again and while it was fun it was just really long some days when you would get burned badly by piping.
The semester is wrapping up really quickly and i feel like ikm running at full speed just to try to get all my things turned in and done and trying to be prepared for finals and be done with all my research hours...... its weird how sometimes you start off feeling like a snail and by the end of the year your struggling just to hold pace. Oh well though such is life i suppose.
I already have plans to see jimmy buffett this summer which is like my new religious affair, i have tickets to bon jovi on two nights and I even have tickets to see styx earlier this summer, so its shaping up to be not so bad at all. and hopefully will be a little slowdown from the crazy pace of everythign going on. but i have a terrible feeling i know it wont be.
its gunna definitly be different with different people downstairs, although i guess its a good thing, its always good to branch your horizons and meet new people. Plus im sure ill hang out with dianne alot becouse heck half my summer plans involve just tryin to bother her half the time.
Things still havent quite felt right since grammy and noel but what can you do, it definitly effected how i see things and how i related to different people. sometimes its a strange feeling to open your eyes and see whos there and whos not when you are in a time of need, so needless to say i still havent picked up with alot of people i used to talk to since everything happened but im rather glad about that, i woudl much rather only stay close to those i know are there for me then hope that everyone else "might" be there next time and only wind up leaning into nothing again.
So i guess in short things are all the same and thigns are all different. My views my philosophies, who i am and what i want have no changed, its just the settign seems to have changed alot around me, a new cast of characters and many new side stories but the tale still holds true to itself with little change. I still really have no ambition for trying to outcompete the world and get some great job, i really dont want to be that guy, i would just liek to make enough to support a family well enough to get by and im set. I really dont care about stocks or trying to "get ahead" i like where i am and like who I am and would rather try not to change it. I mean i still havent really gotten to the level I hope to be relationshipwise, but im starting to get a much cleaere picture, and on top o that my navigational beacon of freindship has improved and overall ive learned quite a bit about things relating to all forms of relationships so i know im at least steering in a better direction then what i used to. theres been mutiny and theres been some who've walked that plank but the crew thats there is the best to do the task. theres no x marks the spot theres no pot of gold im searching for, but im starting to find the treasure in people and still looking for blackbeards bounty in that one quest in particular. but hell what good is finding the perfect person for you right away? you take away the thrill and adventure of the search, and besides what may be best may not be the best for me anyways, so i have to follow my own map and work with the tides for a while. Ill see what happens i suppose, until then i can only try to be me try to do the best that i can, act as kindly as i can to those who deserve it and try not to capsize, and i guess thats all you van do on the voyage.... | 
